Wherever You Lead, I'll Go

God,

I want to go to Queens. That's where my heart is and has been for so long. I'm not asking you to give that to me because I want it, but I am praying that it's in your will for us. As we trudge through life here in Brooklyn, we know there is much to do here as well and we can't deny that. I ask and beg that you take care of Mosaic, even in our possible absence. I would love to move to Queens and serve the community there, but I know it's not up to me and if it were, I'd make a mess of things for sure.

So lead us, Father. Whether it be Queens, another state, or heaven forbid, Brooklyn. Give my heart peace. Wherever you lead, I'll go.

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