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Sunnyside Prayer

 God,

I know I’m in a state of “This is too good to be true”, but I’m praying it’s not. You know me. You know I love Sunnyside and that I’ve longed for Queens since I first visited. I know I get too emotional about things and I beg and complain, but I know I could thrive there. I want to give this to you because if I’m not careful, I’ll get too excited about the possibility and end up leaving you out of the decision. So I pray Lord, not just that you guide us, but that you open that door. We are seeking for an open door and we finally see a crack, but we aren’t sure if it’s from you or stemming from our human hearts. Help us discern your will as we pray through this until March.

Tze and I have felt disconnected and stuck in the neighborhood of Crown Heights. Though we have seen your hand in many ways here, we have nonetheless felt like strangers in this area. With us unable to be in leadership, it makes it that much harder to feel as though we belong here. We have found ourselves questioning why we are still here. We do not want to leave just based off of our emotions about Crown Heights. Yet, we don’t want to stay simply because the church needs to be rebuilt. We want to consult you in this matter and submit to You as you tell us where to go.

God, I’m not going to lie, I want to go to Sunnyside so much. I love the laid-back neighborhood, the affordable apartments, and the simplicity of life there. I love the food, the families, the little shops, the location, and I love the sense of community it seems to have. I desire, more than anywhere, to be in Sunnyside. God, I prayed for a child and you gave me one. I prayed for a job and you gave me one. I prayed to stay in NYC and you made it happen. Though I know you don’t give me everything I want, I know you always take care of me.

So I pray that if this desire to be in Queens is not of you, that you will squash it in my heart. Give me a new love and appreciation for Crown Heights. I almost hate to pray that because honestly, my heart is set on Sunnyside. However, this is your life, not mine. I must submit to you, even when my emotions seek something else. Give me clean hands and pure heart before you. Let my request be made known to you. Help me seek you! I pray you open a door for us in Sunnyside and slowly lead us there. I pray we are able to help another church plant and serve our community. I pray that you work all of this together for your good. If it isn’t meant to be, change my heart. Change my heart, Oh God.

 

Amen.

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